To feel better and endure the trials and tribulations of autoimmune disease it is essential to find and hold onto hope. Hope is feeling like:
If you don't have hope then despair and low self-worth are easy to succumb to and it can feel like there is no other choice but to give-up.
After years and years of illness and devastating medical mishaps, by the time I was a teenager I didn't feel hopeful. I didn't know how to regain hope, nor that it was important. I just knew that it was gone and the feeling of hopelessness was miserable and sad. When hope returned to me it was very clear. I felt invigorated and like I had what I needed to move forward and heal. These new feelings associated with hope became a reference point for me in my life--they were a compass for what hope felt like to me.
So what exactly gave me back my hope? It started with one healer who from the moment I walked into the door sat down with me, looked at me with attentive and empathic eyes, and asked me
Casey, "what do you think is making you sick?"
"What do you need from me so you can begin to get well?"
Then they promised to go down a road with me and help me get there... and they delivered. This showed me what it meant to trust someone and to depend on them. It showed me that when I didn't have my own hope, they held hope for me. I was "somebody" rather than "some-body."
This became a model from which I followed every day since then...because it worked to help my symptoms improve.
And from this point on--one healer who could hold hope for me and help me grow it within myself became two-three-ten-and through the years an entire team of physicians, healers, therapists, body and energy workers, and friends...
Eventually, "I" became the foundation of this team--It was possible for "ME" to generate my own hope from within because I had enough positive experiences with healers and relationships in my life to learn and understand how to LIGHT MY OWN SPARKLE.